Curious

I told my GF today and now I feel worse then I did wen I was hiding it wat if I’m not gay wat if I was just confused I feel like I want her back but now that I told her I can’t. Wat to do.. I’m on my couch right now on the brink of breaking down . Idk wat to do my life feels like its going down I think was just confused I want her back but idk wat if I am gay and I do this to her again idk anymore!!!!!